me : so. how? like it here?
him : YEAHWOR!! i dont want to go back lor! i wanna stay longer
me : haha..im actually surprised u will say that cuz ure frens r not here n uve been stuck wid me 4 the past 3 days.
him : actually. i dont regret at all. i tot i will regret but i dont. im enjoying myself here with u. next time we come again!! MUST! next year okay?
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.:Baby Gin:. stepped on your garbage at
10:55 PM
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zzzzzzzzz.. why my this blog so cacat wan.. my profile at the bottom "=_= ...zzzzz
.:Baby Gin:. stepped on your garbage at
9:20 PM
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hmm...very sien leh this blog skin..hahaha..when im dman sien also i go find nicer blog skin ... not taht ppl still read this blog.. but heck ;p TOO BAD LAR.. URE NOT GETTING MY OTHER BLOG... unless i wuv u ;p mwahahaha
.:Baby Gin:. stepped on your garbage at
9:12 PM
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why do the ones we love always hurt us most? this is a really good theme from the movie gubra.. and honestly.. i wonder the exact same thing.... i just came back from the hospital.. in the past 1 yr 10 months of being with ian.. i have been through 3 deaths with him.1 grandmother and 2 grandfathers. both his side... and both grandfathers felt like i was losing my own grandfather...
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i remember the 1st grandpa that passed away. it was on valentines day last year. me and ian were oblivious to everything and were talking away happily about our dinner plan when the phone suddenly rang saying that his grandfather was in the hospital. no one told us anything.so we went home to prepare for tonight 1st n headed to the hospital about half an hour -1 hour later.. we were too late... and we had no idea it was so serious.... we cried on valentines but we got a lot of roses and we kept them as a tribute to him and laid it on his chair =) .. sadly.. the dog kept gnawing on them "=_=
this grandfather. he was an adorable man and he was possibly one of sweetest man i have ever met. he was always on his chair in his white singlet and shorts watching tv occasionally a crossed checked shirt unbuttoned. he loved buddy and he loved all of us =) ... he was often alone because no one was ever at home.. and i remember how happy he looked when 1 day i was there and ian went out.. so he went to the mamak.. and like he usually does he asked if i would like to join him... it was the 1st time i said ok.. because usually i would b wid ian... he told me stories of so many things while eating his curry maggi with mutton =) hahaha... i could tell the ppl at the mamak adored him as well because they were particularly nice to him...
when i was alone at ians house waiting for ian.. he would often start talking to me about life and his past and just stories.. he was particularly fond of telling me about pearl harbour while stroking buddy... my own grandfather passed away a few years back.. and this grandfather felt like my own.. i only knew him for less den a year...and didnt speak too him much but he found a place in my heart and i will always remember him... sometimes i look at his chair and i can imagine him sitting there in his white singlet and brown shorts as always just flipping through channels on the tv...
i miss him....
and now.. his brother has just passed away a few hours ago.. yes his brother.. its a long story.. maybe another time =S today is the 15th .... 1 day after his brother.. but on a different month.. this time we were at mid valley.. we had just bought movie tickets and were looking for something to eat when once again suddenly the dreaded call....*grandma called.. she said grandpa is dead* .. this was from andrea.. so ian called back.. and his grandma went *i think grandfather died liao* ... this left us stunned.. and we rushed back there immediately.. thank gawd.. he was alive.. but he was moaning in pain... and he was vomiting all over refusing to get up..he just laid there sprawled on the table making noises and refusing to open his eyes... ians cousin had just called for an ambulance.. they said they would reach in 15 mins but onli reached 45 mins later dued to the jam..
the panic that went through all of us was enough to literally kill us all... we rushed to hukm... and by the time we reached there..he was a lot better than b4.. we were relieved.. so we even headed off to eat a late lunch at mc d.. thinking it would all be okay.. when we went back.. everything seemed fine.. he was stable... but he had to have an operation because there was a problem with his veins.. i had to rush home and ian was tired as well...so we left 1st while his dad waited with him... we thought it would all be okay.. when suddenly ian calls me and tells me i have to go to the hospital now..the doctor says hes going to die...
i was shocked.. literally stopped in my tracks and just stood there with the phone on my ears staring at space... we went.. to hospital kuala lumpur..it was raining..there was jam... we had to run in the rain..moving around blindly.. an hour had passed when we finally reached somewhere but the guard said we couldnt go up.. so ian called his dad.. his dad said blah blah blah .. said it was on the other side.. but the stupid road was 1 way so we had to go out and go in again before we went in.. his dad called again demanding where we were..so we told him...
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and we discovered... we were at the wrong hospital...... they were still at HUKM..... gawd noes who told us the wrong crap.. we were in utter confusment..angry..frustrated...on the way back to cheras.. i suddenly felt a sudden emotion run through me and tears welled up.. i felt it..i felt him leave....but i wasnt sure.. i knew i was sensitive to things like ghost and spirits.. but i didnt think it was true..... by the time we reached.. nobody told us anything..but we couldnt see him..his ward was closed off.... and i overheard them talking..
he passed away.. we were too late... AGAIN....
tears welled up and i could feel my heart drop.... it was real.. what i felt in the car earlier was real.... ive onli met him 3 times so far.. he's a reverand and also one of the sweetest man ever.. he has the cutest laught and the cutest smile... i was often made fun off my ians grandma/his wife because i was a banana and their family often spoke in hokkien..but he would always never leave me out and tried his best to translate everything for me.. he used to tell me stories about christianity and he always gave me little bits of advices.... today came as a shock because he was still pretty healthy.....and till now i still cant really accept the reality of it...
i've lost another grandfather.. and it hurts... i dint break down and cry.. not in the hospital.. i couldn't.. i had to be there for ian.. but the minute i step onto my car porch and looked at my dog..i broke down..i sat there while my great dane laid by my feet occasionally nudging me on my face with her nose ....i miss him 2..... it proves that love hurts and those we love always hurt us most....i wonder why.....i know why.. but yet i dont know why...
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dear mr woon.! the greatest reverand/grandfather ever! may you rest in peace and take care always! we'll miss you and we all love you a lot. you'll always be in our hearts!! god will always be with you! muacks!!! hugs and kisses!
(this post was posted earlier elsewhere.. but i decided to make it public..)
.:Baby Gin:. stepped on your garbage at
11:35 AM
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why am i suddenly reposting this?was lying on bed and sumtin in my mind keep going "post it back post it back" well last time..i posted this.. the ppl involved got all freaky and went to tell ian which made ian angry cuz ian wanted so badly to protect her.. from den on.. the bf.. started hitting me and treating me like a toy and abusing me in ways none of you would have thought imaginable by him.. and till now.. it carries on.. just because of this 1 girl =) well..since his abused has become so regular because of her.. i tot..hey.. why not.. might as well.. since my blog hasnt exactly matched its title in a long time =)
why am i still with him then u ask.. good question.. cuz i dont know either.. i knwo i love him..but thats abt it...dont ask.. cuz i dont know the answer ok..
btw.. the random comments in brackets is me..
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I DARE U ALL TO SAY THEY R JUST BEST FRIENDS.. GO AHEAD.. SAY IT
.--------------------------------------------------------------------. Session Start: Friday, December 16, 2005 Participants: bloopszy! * because of you * (bloopsz@hotmail.com) ...ow :.* ????* A delicate doll (X) (hilda_garde_3@hotmail.com) .--------------------------------------------------------------------.[02:23:16 AM]
bloopszy! * : hoyyyy!!
[02:23:48 AM] .: pillow :.* ????* A delicate doll (X) just sent you a Nudge
02:23:50 AM] .: pillow :.: ?????????/
[02:23:51 AM] .: pillow :.: make love
[02:23:52 AM] .: pillow :.: no war
[02:24:00 AM] bloopszy! * : ish..
[02:24:05 AM] .: pillow :.: ?
[02:24:05 AM] bloopszy! * : i wont have war..
[02:24:14 AM] bloopszy! * : i only have love all over me..
[02:24:17 AM] bloopszy! * : hohoho!!
[02:24:20 AM] .: pillow :.: cheh
[02:24:24 AM] .: pillow :.: cheap/. ( OMG.. LOOK WHOS TALKING.THE IRONY)
[02:24:25 AM] .: pillow :.: wah
[02:24:29 AM] .: pillow :.: jsut finsih bath
[02:24:30 AM] .: pillow :.: soi comfortable(and then..need to tell annot? wad u want? fuck is it?)
[02:24:38 AM] bloopszy! * : hahaha
[02:24:55 AM] .: pillow :.: got taht pussy cat aht song??
[02:25:04 AM] .: pillow :.: your gf your gf that 1
[02:25:15 AM] bloopszy! * : i have it
02:25:19 AM] .: pillow :.: can send?
[02:25:22 AM] bloopszy! * : you want me to send to you er
02:25:25 AM] bloopszy! * : i scared slow le..
[02:25:26 AM] bloopszy! * : wait wait..
[02:25:44 AM] .: pillow :.: ok
02:26:31 AM] .: pillow :.: and stick wioth u also
[02:27:39 AM] .: pillow :.: thanks
[02:28:05 AM] bloopszy! * : quite fast wo
02:28:22 AM] .: pillow :.: yea
[02:28:25 AM] bloopszy! * : stick what with me?
[02:28:25 AM] .: pillow :.: of coz/.
[02:28:32 AM] .: pillow :.: ><"
[02:28:34 AM] .: pillow :.: that song lar
[02:28:36 AM] .: pillow :.: wait
[02:28:38 AM] bloopszy! * : got meh?
[02:28:40 AM] .: pillow :.: i put my clotehs on first
[02:28:55 AM] bloopszy! * : wah!
[02:29:01 AM] bloopszy! * : you not wearing anything..
[02:29:05 AM] bloopszy! * : berani betul..
[02:31:54 AM] .: pillow :.: got towel mer/
02:34:00 AM] bloopszy! * : oh okie okie..
[02:34:11 AM] .: pillow :.: yea
[02:34:32 AM] bloopszy! * : so did you enjoy dancing just now? (.....)
[02:34:37 AM] bloopszy! * : hmmm
02:34:40 AM] .: pillow :.: no showe fer prom/.
[02:34:44 AM] .: pillow :.: yea opf coz/.
[02:34:47 AM] .: pillow :.: u?
[02:34:48 AM] bloopszy! * : show?
[02:35:08 AM] .: pillow :.: shoe
[02:35:15 AM] bloopszy! * : hahha
[02:35:22 AM] bloopszy! * : wear old 1 la..no one will know la..
[02:35:30 AM] bloopszy! * : anyway i did enjoy dancing just now too
02:35:31 AM] .: pillow :.: haha
[02:35:32 AM] .: pillow :.: yea
[02:35:36 AM] .: pillow :.: planing to wear abck last year de
[02:35:41 AM] .: pillow :.: COOOL
[02:35:44 AM] bloopszy! * : good good..save money!
[02:36:23 AM] .: pillow :.: i did spwend alot fer prom man
[02:36:38 AM] bloopszy! * : aihz..nvmla
02:36:55 AM] bloopszy! * : only once le promnite..
[02:36:59 AM] .: pillow :.: yukon there claim back
[02:37:05 AM] bloopszy! * : hahhaa..yea yea
02:37:17 AM] .: pillow :.: lol
[02:38:07 AM] bloopszy! * : you say "annonymous" will say anything ornot leh ha?
[02:39:01 AM] .: pillow :.: dont know
[02:39:03 AM] .: pillow :.: dont think she wil
[02:39:17 AM] .: pillow :.: because i try to pull her into thedance also ( how sad.. drag other ppl in.. worst den me lor)
[02:39:19 AM] .: pillow :.: so if she say
[02:39:30 AM] .: pillow :.: i also can say she join us
[02:39:30 AM] .: pillow :.: at the dance (FUCKER.. WHATS WRONG WITH U.. TREAT URE FRIENDS LIKE THAT... HENG DAIZ N YI HEI MY ARSE LAR.. BITCH.u fucking drag her in and u put the blame on her?)
[02:39:48 AM] bloopszy! * : hmmm...
[02:39:51 AM] bloopszy! * : clever wo!.. (asshole)
[02:40:13 AM] bloopszy! * : long time i didnt dance with girl jor lo..
[02:40:24 AM] .: pillow :.: hahah
[02:40:27 AM] .: pillow :.: desperate.
[02:40:27 AM] bloopszy! * : just now dance also feel abit auckward
[02:40:51 AM] .: pillow :.: too bad
[02:41:00 AM] .: pillow :.: that day u cant dance with other girl apet ginny ( WELL.. im his gf.. and well.. he is the fucker that wont let me break up =))
[02:41:11 AM] bloopszy! * : hahaha!
[02:41:18 AM] bloopszy! * : i dont know about that la
02:41:38 AM] .: pillow :.: haha also dont wanna talk abt it/.
[02:41:42 AM] .: pillow :.: hahaha thn if i cant play with u ( play? wtf? )
[02:41:44 AM] .: pillow :.: i play melvin
[02:41:49 AM] .: pillow :.: haha jiao
[02:41:50 AM] .: pillow :.: jiao
02:42:21 AM] bloopszy! * : just now i chang siu siu kiss tou you jor 1 lo
02:42:38 AM] .: pillow :.: i know
02:42:48 AM] bloopszy! * : i tell you..it was like damn fucking on already ( yerh.. where got brother and sister like this wan?? HAHAH.. FUCK U LAR... brother and sister my ass..)
[02:43:01 AM] bloopszy! * : then i thought better not!
[02:43:08 AM] bloopszy! * : later problematicz occur
[02:43:24 AM] .: pillow :.: i kow
[02:43:27 AM] .: pillow :.: thats y i turn my face away ( cheh..actually u also want want)
[02:43:41 AM] bloopszy! * : ohhhh...
[02:43:43 AM] bloopszy! * : like that laaa! ( angry liao...)
[02:44:09 AM] .: pillow :.: hahah
[02:44:14 AM] .: pillow :.: better dont coz trouble tto u ler ( DEN FUCK OFF LAR.. ONLI KNOW HOW TO FUCKING TALK..)
02:45:17 AM] bloopszy! * : hahahaha
02:45:41 AM] bloopszy! * : i already got into lotz of trouble be4 jor
02:45:55 AM] bloopszy! * : thiz will be nothing already i feel tou. ( IS IT?? WHO ELSE YOU TRIED TO CHEAT ON ME WITH? )
.[02:46:06 AM] bloopszy! * : immune sudah!
[02:46:17 AM] .: pillow :.: hahahaha
[02:46:22 AM] .: pillow :.: meanigng in anotehr word
[02:46:27 AM] .: pillow :.: if u kiss me thn ntg will happen?
[02:46:54 AM] bloopszy! * : well i dont think anyone would have know if i kissed you ornot lo..
[02:47:33 AM] .: pillow :.: haha but beter control abit
[02:47:36 AM] .: pillow :.: u still have gf
02:47:39 AM] .: pillow :.: i dont hve bf
[02:47:42 AM] .: pillow :.: os i no need worry (but i tot u said ure both brother n sister?? *raise eyebrow*)
[02:47:52 AM] bloopszy! * : hahaha!
[02:48:05 AM] bloopszy! * : how i wish i could get myself out of thiz mess.. (you drag me in also.. dont let me out.. and u dare to say this..)
[02:48:24 AM] .: pillow :.: well uy can
[02:48:28 AM] .: pillow :.: jut dont care ler
[02:48:30 AM] .: pillow :.: if she force u
[02:48:34 AM] .: pillow :.: howu dont
[02:48:37 AM] .: pillow :.: no one can force u de
[02:48:43 AM] .: pillow :.: thats what leon told me
[02:48:46 AM] .: pillow :.: be tough
[02:48:50 AM] bloopszy! * : the thing is that i still have some feelings for her mer..
[02:49:01 AM] .: pillow :.: thats the prb lor
[02:49:03 AM] .: pillow :.: i kow u love her
02:49:03 AM] bloopszy! * : but i dont want to be with her..
[02:49:07 AM] .: pillow :.: liek o damn much u know
02:49:09 AM] .: pillow :.: BTW
[02:49:32 AM] .: pillow :.: dlt this chat log ( why? didnt do anything wrong y so scared)
[02:49:37 AM] bloopszy! * : hahaha
[02:49:51 AM] bloopszy! * : i will have to wait until the song finish le..
[02:50:03 AM] bloopszy! * : in case she suddenly pop up in my house morrow..
[02:50:06 AM] bloopszy! * : hai lat! ( hello.. prom lor.. i bloody stayed up the whole night cleaning ure fucking puke and washing u while u slept lor.. unappreciative ass)
[02:50:20 AM] .: pillow :.: yea
[02:50:20 AM] bloopszy! * : then i think by that time have to kiss tiang already..
[02:50:38 AM] bloopszy! * : ahhahaha
[02:50:42 AM] .: pillow :.: hahahhaa
[02:50:45 AM] .: pillow :.: yea wor/
02:51:07 AM] .: pillow :.: thn have to sleep in hospital ( thats u sweetheart)
[02:51:14 AM] bloopszy! * : hahhaha
[02:51:19 AM] bloopszy! * : let the needle kiss..
[02:51:22 AM] bloopszy! * : better still!
[02:51:39 AM] .: pillow :.: hahaha ygea
[02:51:49 AM] .: pillow :.: temperature that thing
[02:51:50 AM] .: pillow :.: what is it call
02:51:54 AM] .: pillow :.: thermometer
[02:52:01 AM] bloopszy! * : hahhaa
[02:52:16 AM] bloopszy! * : make me lost my asshole virginity..
[02:52:19 AM] bloopszy! * : no way!
[02:52:54 AM] .: pillow :.: hahaha
[02:52:58 AM] .: pillow :.: no other cjhoice
[02:53:06 AM] bloopszy! * : nola..
[02:53:13 AM] bloopszy! * : still got lie peh to kiss me 1 geh!
[02:53:35 AM] bloopszy! * : you wont leave me alone and let me kiss the tiang rite... ( obviously.. u know how much she wants u also wad .. tahts y kenot leave u alone lor)
[02:53:36 AM] bloopszy! * : hahaha
[02:55:29 AM] .: pillow :.: haha
[02:55:32 AM] .: pillow :.: well rather kiss my dolls
[02:55:38 AM] .: pillow :.: oh teddy is available
[02:56:02 AM] bloopszy! * : wah!
[02:56:10 AM] .: pillow :.: haha
[02:56:11 AM] bloopszy! * : you rather kiss dead thingz than live thingz..
[02:56:22 AM] bloopszy! * : how can you do thiz to a boy like me?
[02:56:38 AM] .: pillow :.: hahaha
[02:56:43 AM] .: pillow :.: pity?pls
[02:57:09 AM] bloopszy! * : i dont need you to kiss me bcuz you pity me..
[02:57:33 AM] bloopszy! * : kiss someone bcuz with full sincerity geh.. ( LOOK WHOS FUCKING TALKING)
[02:57:45 AM] .: pillow :.: hahhaa
[02:57:55 AM] .: pillow :.: kinda tired ler
[02:58:19 AM] bloopszy! * : then how?
[02:58:28 AM] bloopszy! * : kiss your dolls or kiss me?
[02:58:41 AM] bloopszy! * : give you a second chance! (2nd chance for what??? i tot nothing between both of u?? summoh call me and tell me..gin..see! im not drunk!! and i swear to god i didnt go near lp at all! happy or not..)
[02:58:42 AM] .: pillow :.: u lor
[02:58:48 AM] .: pillow :.: right after i kiss my dolls
[02:58:53 AM] .: pillow :.: WHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH
[02:58:58 AM] .: pillow :.: kaka
[02:59:07 AM] bloopszy! * : hmmm..
[02:59:15 AM] bloopszy! * : i come after your dolls..
[02:59:21 AM] bloopszy! * : how sad is that?.. ( i come after her.. but she comes after my money.. which is more sad? )
[02:59:30 AM] .: pillow :.: wow/.
[02:59:32 AM] .: pillow :.: ganas
[02:59:47 AM] .: pillow :.: eh btw
[02:59:49 AM] .: pillow :.: u saw that ring
[02:59:53 AM] .: pillow :.: of "annoymous" and "annonymous"
/[02:59:58 AM] bloopszy! * : no woh..
[03:00:05 AM] .: pillow :.: hmm
[03:00:08 AM] bloopszy! * : how is it?
[03:00:10 AM] bloopszy! * : nice?
[03:00:17 AM] .: pillow :.: abit lou tou
[03:00:19 AM] .: pillow :.: but still nice
[03:00:29 AM] bloopszy! * : hmmm..
[03:00:47 AM] bloopszy! * : good for them lo..
[03:00:48 AM] .: pillow :.: haih
[03:00:53 AM] .: pillow :.: u and "annonymus" okay mou ar?
[03:01:00 AM] bloopszy! * : hahhaa
[03:01:11 AM] bloopszy! * : i dont want to have anything much to do with her
[03:01:30 AM] .: pillow :.: true though
[03:01:36 AM] .: pillow :.: she might bites/. ( URE THE FUCKING SNAKE WHOS BITING.)
[03:01:48 AM] bloopszy! * : hahhaa..
[03:01:55 AM] bloopszy! * : bite who?
[03:01:57 AM] bloopszy! * : you?
[03:02:08 AM] .: pillow :.: us ( WHY GOT US WAN?? EH EH?? WHATS THIS?? WAD RELATIONSHIP IS THERE?? BETRAY YOU TWO WHY?? BECAUSE GOT AFFAIR ARK BOTH OF U??)
[03:02:15 AM] bloopszy! * : hahaha
[03:02:21 AM] bloopszy! * : we got 2 mouth..
[03:02:27 AM] bloopszy! * : who bite faster..hahahha ( of course both of u la.. also bite me dunno how many times already wad )
[03:02:45 AM] .: pillow :.: haha
[03:02:50 AM] .: pillow :.: she bites me thn u bite her ( even he dont do that for me.. but do for u.. how more obvious man)
[03:03:16 AM] bloopszy! * : hahahha..
[03:03:37 AM] bloopszy! * : bite sound abit ....
[03:04:13 AM] .: pillow :.: hahhaa
[03:04:20 AM] .: pillow :.: oh "annonymous" loves vincent"annonymous"?
[03:04:25 AM] bloopszy! * : wah
[03:04:27 AM] bloopszy! * : i dont know la..
[03:04:49 AM] bloopszy! * : seriously..its like "annonymous" and "annoynymous" t really close le..
[03:05:00 AM] .: pillow :.: hahah yea i saw pics
[03:05:06 AM] bloopszy! * : just like me and you.. ( eh.. u see.. u can tell that both of them got thing..den admit juz like both of u..den deny it.. MEH LAN? )
[03:05:11 AM] bloopszy! * : so if i ask you..
[03:05:13 AM] bloopszy! * : you love me gah?
[03:05:17 AM] bloopszy! * : how to answer..
[03:05:21 AM] bloopszy! * : no answer rite..hahahha
[03:05:32 AM] .: pillow :.: hahah true
[03:05:36 AM] .: pillow :.: but they know each other like
[03:05:39 AM] .: pillow :.: i heard "annonymous" said
[03:05:46 AM] .: pillow :.: sshe who also ngam geh wor/.
[03:05:49 AM] .: pillow :.: some kinda like me
[03:05:57 AM] .: pillow :.: at first i tot she and "annonymous" together
[03:06:01 AM] bloopszy! * : hahhaha
[03:06:12 AM] bloopszy! * : i dont know la..but she really too much 1 lo
[03:06:26 AM] .: pillow :.: quite
[03:06:46 AM] bloopszy! * : you close until got limitz ( MY FUCK LAR.. SHES WORST LOR.. WAD FUCKER LIES ON ANOTHER PERSONS BFS NAKED CHEST ON THE FUCKING BED? )
[03:07:03 AM] bloopszy! * : she ah..can hold ppls back during yam cha 1 eh
[03:07:04 AM] bloopszy! * : damn keng
[03:07:07 AM] .: pillow :.: she leh?
[03:07:15 AM] .: pillow :.: haha like?"
[03:07:30 AM] bloopszy! * : i dont know la..
[03:07:42 AM] bloopszy! * : but she is quite a nice person to be with la ..
[03:07:47 AM] bloopszy! * : friendly and nice..
[03:07:52 AM] .: pillow :.: hahaha
[03:07:58 AM] .: pillow :.: kinda like me lar/.
[03:07:58 AM] bloopszy! * : i dont see why the boyz will avoid her lo
[03:07:59 AM] .: pillow :.: but i better
[03:08:01 AM] .: pillow :.: whahahahahhaha
[03:08:03 AM] bloopszy! * : nola..
[03:08:03 AM] .: pillow :.: whahahahhahahahahahah
[03:08:05 AM] bloopszy! * : you worse ( yealor.. u also know lor)
[03:08:14 AM] .: pillow :.: hbreak
[03:08:17 AM] .: pillow :.: xD
[03:08:25 AM] bloopszy! * : at least she chooses living thingz than dead thingz..
[03:08:27 AM] .: pillow :.: THANK YOU
[03:08:36 AM] .: pillow :.: xD
[03:08:41 AM] bloopszy! * : exp *dolls*
[03:08:43 AM] .: pillow :.: hhah
[03:08:49 AM] .: pillow :.: now final aswer for my dear ian
[03:08:59 AM] .: pillow :.: I WILL KIIIIIIISSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS IAN BEFORE MY DOLLLSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS ( so suddenly...)
[03:09:07 AM] .: pillow :.: can ar? *sincere* pls
[03:09:15 AM] bloopszy! * : hohoho!!
[03:09:26 AM] bloopszy! * : it was hard forcing you to say that.. ( i tot she said ppl kenot force wan... so its obvious she wanna do it wad)
[03:09:33 AM] .: pillow :.: hahhaaaahhaa
[03:09:42 AM] .: pillow :.: cant u see he word sincere there?
[03:09:43 AM] Transfer of "The Pussycats Dolls ft. Busta Rhymes - Don't Cha (Remix)(1).mp3" is complete.
[03:09:49 AM] bloopszy! * : oh okie..
[03:09:59 AM] bloopszy! * : so dont kiss your dolls first..
[03:09:59 AM] .: pillow :.: added with sincere facd
[03:10:00 AM] .: pillow :.: e
03:10:16 AM] bloopszy! * : must be fair in thiz world..
[03:10:19 AM] bloopszy! * : must line up..
[03:10:27 AM] bloopszy! * : ask your dolls man man wait la ha..
[03:10:28 AM] bloopszy! * : hahaha
[03:10:31 AM] .: pillow :.: haha
[03:10:43 AM] .: pillow :.: xD yea
03:10:54 AM] bloopszy! * : wei!
[03:10:58 AM] bloopszy! * : go sleep lo!
[03:11:03 AM] .: pillow :.: yesh
[03:11:06 AM] .: pillow :.: DLT THE CHAT LOG ( again???)
[03:11:06 AM] bloopszy! * : i kau kau chu lo ( baby talk dou... he dun even talk like that to me or any of his ex lo)
[03:11:10 AM] bloopszy! * : no ark.
[03:11:11 AM] .: pillow :.: and remember
[03:11:16 AM] bloopszy! * : i want to post in yafro ark ( post what ark? i still dunno lor until this day)
[03:11:20 AM] .: pillow :.: the recycle bin ( SO FUCKING SCARED MEH)
[03:11:22 AM] bloopszy! * : hahhaha
[03:11:24 AM] .: pillow :.: oh GREAT
[03:11:26 AM] .: pillow :.: go ahead
03:11:40 AM] bloopszy! * : nola..later i have to be force to be with you.. * force.. u want to be with her wad)
[03:11:50 AM] bloopszy! * : not nice le..as i said..sincerity!
[03:12:01 AM] bloopszy! * : dont force geh we all..
[03:12:04 AM] .: pillow :.: haha eya lar uyea lar
[03:12:12 AM] .: pillow :.: sincerity lar
[03:12:14 AM] .: pillow :.: go sleep lar
[03:12:26 AM] bloopszy! * : kk
[03:12:34 AM] bloopszy! * : i will slowly walk to my bed!
[03:12:36 AM] .: pillow :.: dlt chat log
[03:12:38 AM] .: pillow :.: dlt chat log ( this is the 5th)
[03:12:42 AM] .: pillow :.: ><"
[03:12:47 AM] .: pillow :.: SO NEAR jump only lar
[03:13:02 AM] bloopszy! * : hahhaa
[03:13:10 AM] bloopszy! * : so any last words from you?
[03:13:19 AM] bloopszy! * : *sincerity* remember ( THE IRONY )
[03:13:21 AM] .: pillow :.: empty recycle bin also ( AGAIN )
[03:13:27 AM] .: pillow :.: hahha
[03:13:30 AM] bloopszy! * : thnx
[03:13:33 AM] .: pillow :.: good night and swweeeet dreams
[03:13:39 AM] .: pillow :.: i enjoy tonight
[03:13:41 AM] .: pillow :.: ;) ( wink wad orh... wink like that said enjoy tonight.. fucking sure sumtin else happened)
[03:13:48 AM] bloopszy! * : great me too!
[03:13:55 AM] bloopszy! * : have another nite like that la ha! (I SUPPORT U!! GO GO.. FUCKER)
[03:13:59 AM] .: pillow :.: haha sure ( dun wanna cause problems den??)
[03:14:02 AM] .: pillow :.: bey bey lar
[03:14:07 AM] bloopszy! * : byez byez!
[03:14:26 AM] bloopszy! * : sweet dreammzz! ''
[03:14:31 AM] .: pillow :.: muak
[03:14:44 AM] bloopszy! * : Play "Kiss" (he doesnt even muacks me juz so u know)
.:Baby Gin:. stepped on your garbage at
7:04 PM
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i just want to sit in a corner and cry..so many things are going through my head.. most of them the same things.. but still.. it's amazing how even after such time... after so long.. i can still cry my eyes out and feel pain in my heart..
whats love really? ... is it real?.. or is it just a word created by humans to deceive each other? and whats being in love? whats its purpose...? why do the ones you love most always end up being the ones who hurt you most? ... why? ....
.:Baby Gin:. stepped on your garbage at
8:25 PM
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disclaimer. yes. i did ask him to do this. yes i 100% fully admit it ^_^ but dont be fooled by the 1st sentence. he doesnt have a choice because he had to MAKE A CHOICE.. if you ppl dont get it.. and insist i forced him or else ill kill his family or some shit like that.. its like this
if u had 5 bucks. and u wanted to eat a cake. the cake cost 4.50. u wanted both strawberry and chocolate but only had enough money for one. option 1. choose either strawberry or chocolate. and option 2. wait until somebody buys 1 of the cake so you dont have to make a choice.
unfortunately in ians case. he CHOSE to make the choice. to ians so called "friends" what he says to u ppl when angry and when he's not. r 2 very seperate things? so how ah.. which is true? lol.. none of u will ever know huh seeing as after all that. we're still together.
btw when he says ex's.. he doesnt mean ex frens or ex bro n sis but ex bf n gf =S so dont ask anymore
.:Baby Gin:. stepped on your garbage at
3:27 PM
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